weigh in wednesday…
Results are in…down another 1.3 lbs. That’s a total of 19.8 lbs.
I’m good with the progress but at the same time, I’m not. Kae and I went to Runners High N’ Tri to check out winter gear. And as I said, they don’t have much in the way of XXL stuff, and I’m still a little big for the XL stuff. While trying on a couple jackets and tops, Kae looked up and told me ‘I was too big…that is was ok that I’m a big guy’.
And it hit me. I’m tired of being big. I know she didn’t mean anything by it, she’s 4-1/2…I’m just tired. Tired of people calling me ‘Big Dan’ or ’slim’. I’m tired of feeling insecure, being embarrassed, ashamed and feeling like I look like a piece of crap. Tired of hating looking in the mirror. Tired of having a hard time clothes shopping. Tired of being the fat guy on the train no one sits by because well, I’m a fat guy.
I’m tired and maybe a little angry that I’ve let myself get to this point.
I just want to be Dan. So I’m irked because I’m not further along, I’m being a bit impatient. I get that…but it still bugs me. I’m ready for this change, I just want the process to go faster. I know it will happen…and in a year, I’ll look back and it’ll be awesome.
When you’re tired and angry…you get testy.
Dave Wallach @ Pace of Chicago
Nice job on more weight gone!
Being testy is what will keep you going
Daughters are the best – she will like you even when you are scrawny!
I plan on feeding on the testiness!
Thanks Sharon!
First of all….I am SO proud of you. Second, you did not become the “physical” Dan that you are today over night so you are not going to change that over night and I agree it is hard to have patience. You are an inspiration to others to say enough is enough. Lastly you will always be “Big Dan” to me since you will always have a big heart for your family and friends! You will continue to make your goals just make sure you take some baby steps and celebrate even the smallest accomplishments since all the big ones will add up to big changes! Keep going buddy!!!
Jane- thank you, I needed that. You made me tear up lol!
I’ll amend my stance on Big Dan- to accept it in that instance.
20 lbs! That’s FANTASTIC! Give yourself a break. Isn’t your goal 1- 2 lbs per week? That’s the healthy way to do this. You have already exceeded this goal, right? Be patient. We are all impatient with our athletic and weightloss goals but it just doesn’t work that way. Mind, body and spirit – sounds cliche but really, getting into this sport is exercising and building them all. Just stick with the workouts and you will exceed your goals. Keep it up!
Thanks Roz! I needed to vent a little!
Dan! Hopefully you will never tire of me saying, “NICE JOB!” all the time b/c I will be saying it a lot until next October!!!! Keep up the great job and remember my motto: ONE DAY AT A TIME!
No way coach!
Thanks and I will!