Hopefully you’ve had a great Thanksgiving! Mine was great! Good food, great company…an all around fantastic day. I was nervous about over eating, but I couldn’t really finish my one serving…awesome!
I got a call about an hour ago, from my family on my dad’s side. My cousin Bryan, who I’ve mentioned before is getting active. Bryan is built like me, and has decided to get in shape. They called, all on speaker phone, because Bryan said I was his inspiration…they wanted me to know. I’ve said it before…if me doing this is inspiration for family, friends and coworkers…that’s fantastic! It means I’m on the right path; I don’t want to let them down, so I’m going to work that much harder to hit my goals and succeed.
So I asked Bryan if he wanted to run the Santa Shuffle with me next Saturday…he sounded worried. So I asked if he’d walk it. And he is! AND, his brother is going to run! I joked with them that they should run the marathon…silence on the phone. I said I’d settle with them coming out and hollering at me along the way!
I am SUPER pumped that Bryan and Nick are going to Shuffle too! I’ve emailed a fourth cousin, per my aunt…to see if he wanted to run as well!
Look out world, Team Cubicle is coming!
Feeling inspired.
Ok, yes..it’s reality TV, but I can relate to this show. And watching, while feeling inspired, I feel guilty as well. Guilty, and like I failed or something. I ate like crap tonight…not junk, but carby and my portions sucked. I feel like a fatty.
I dislike nights where Pam works…I feel like there’s no time for me. I feel I need to feed K, feed PG…get them ready for bed, and then make something for me to eat. By then it’s 7:30 and I’m starving. Like tonight…damnit. I need to meal plan better, or have an afternoon snack later…something.
I don’t know why I’m dwelling…well, probably because I feel I let myself down, I feel ashamed maybe, embarrassed and maybe a little angry.
I need to get in to see an RD…
Going to do the dishes and try to stop dwelling.
The results are in, another 2.4 lbs down! So close to breaking through my “glass ceiling” pf 300lbs…or is it a glass floor? Doesn’t matter, I’m breaking through this week damn it!
Today’s run went well. I love this route, or variations there of…it’s quiet, decent roads and along the forest preserve. Lately on these early morning runs, I’ve been heading this way. I ran with headphones again, nothing like a run and Green Day on shuffle to start the day! I think part of me is worried that I’ll enjoy running with them too much. I don’t want to rely on them as a crutch. I was in the mood for some toonage…
Thanksgiving is upon us…and as a fat guy, it’s been my favorite holiday. This year, I’m scared shitless. I don’t want to fall off the wagon tomorrow. I’m pretty sure I’ll be ok…besides I’ll be with family and friends who will lend a hand and keep me in check.
I have a lot to be thankful for. I’m thankful for…
- my wife, Pam. My best friend.
- my daughters, K and PG…this is PG’s first Thanksgiving, and I’m excited.
- my family…I don’t see all of you as much as I’d like, but I love you all.
- my friends…especially Jon, for busting my chops and sparking all this
- my job, coworkers and bosses (all 4 of them)
- my new marathon friends
- Dave & Pace of Chicago for helping fan the flame
- Coach Jen and her guidance. I’ll admit, I was leery at first. Six weeks ago, I would have never thought I would be able to run 3-4 miles.
-for the progress I’ve made and the progress I will make
- being able to run
There’s more…but that’s the short list. Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Enjoy the day!
(This will more than likely be random…)
I hit the gym at lunch today, went well. I pushed a little bit on the 3rd set…and felt it for a bit after. But overall, it was a good workout. I was all business, did my sets, some bike and headed back to work.
This week is hectic…short work week, which means everything is crammed into fewer days. That and Pam has an exam and is working 4 nights and Sunday…so it’s me and the girls a lot, which I’m cool with. It is hard to change gears from having your partner there to help out, and tag team the kids to flying solo. It all works out…
Tomorrow I get back to running, and I’m actually excited! And I’m ok if it rains! It’s also Weigh-in Wednesday…I’m anxious to see the results. More tomorrow!
I feel “off” about tomorrow. I missed last week’s gym day with both girls being sick and fighting something myself. It threw off the routine, and I guess I’m worried I’ll dog it or something.
Ok, so I feel “off” in general. I worry I’ll stumble here at some point, because looking at my track record…I stumble, and then regress.
I’m building a good foundation. I’ve never had this solid of a plan, never had a coach or the guidance, never had this much support and never put myself out there like this. I still can’t shake the thought that I’ll mess up, give up or stumble somehow. Am I over thinking things? Yeah, I am. I know, take it a day at a time, one foot in front of the other…or one set at the gym, err…ok, yeah. One day at a time and focus on the task at hand.
I’m going to chill for a bit and try to quiet the mind. Just needed to get this out.
More later.
I woke up at 6am, nervous. Why? I guess because this was my longest run so far…50 minutes. I guess because I didn’t want to fail, didn’t want to let folks down- didn’t want to let myself down.
I’m smiling…I did it. Ran 55 minutes, no walking. Longest run for me, well…ever. I did catch myself a couple times on the run, trying to figure my pace…I just focused on my breathing and cleared my mind. The best part, I could have kept going. Part of me wanted to push…but I didn’t. Stick to the plan…Coach Jen knows what she’s doing.
I almost forgot…about 1/2 a mile in, I came across a deer on the trail. I got within 4 feet…closest I’ve ever been to a deer. It was awesome, and yet a little scary. I’ve seen “Tommy Boy”, I know what a deer can do. Seriously, it was really cool!
Yes, I have a long way to go…times today’s run by 5 or 6 for next October. That’s what I need to build to. I won’t lie, part of me is scared by that…and worried I can’t do it. I’m not really listening to that…I’ll get there. I’m going to pound that doubt out of my head…I will do it.
The rest of today, I’ll hang out with the girls and do some laundry. Pam’s going to work, day one of four straight for her.
More later…
My wife is awesome…she let me sleep in until 8 this morning, and she let me nap! Pam also handled mroe fo the chores today…she kicks ass, and let me rest up!
Tonight, after the girls are down, I think we’re going to take in a movie. Not sure what, doesn’t matter really. While Pam gets K clean, PG and I are taking in the “I Love Egg” song and some of the episodes. Awesome!
Tomorrow, I run…50 minutes. I’ve got a play list ready…56.1 minutes, should cover me.
I peeked at the scale this morning…good progress. I won’t share a figure, don’t want to jinx it any more than I may have.
More later…
As I have vacation time to use, I slept in a bit! Figured I’d stay home with the girls and let Pam get back to class.
Both girls are good…K’s temp is down and so is PG’s! We seem to e past the sickness. Yay!
And for this morning’s run, I went over to the trails in the forest preserve…more hilly than I’ve been running on. It went ok…though I got lapped by a woman I would guess was in her late fifties, early sixties…I got lapped not once, but twice. I am slow.
I have to share this…since I started training, I’ve had a lot of friends, coworkers and family tell me they’ve gotten more active. For example, I got a shout out from my cousin on FB…
Bryan Fielder worked out today…thank you to Amy Freeborn, Thomas Clements, and Daniel Malinski…you have influenced me in some way, thanks
Pretty cool. Seeing things like this inspire me and motivate me to keep going. I am positive that this is definitely the right path!
More later! Big run on Sunday…
K’s fever is gone! She still has a cough and a slight runny nose, but she seems like herself again.
PG’s fever is ok, managed with ibuprofen and tylenol. The highest was last evening…spiked at 103.2. Today’s high was 102.0. She’s in bed now fighting going to sleep. We’ll give her ibuprofen when we go to bed and I put a call into the pediatrician for peace of mind.
Today’s workout was a long walk for 45 minutes. With the lack of sleep, the stress and fighting being sick myself, it was a welcome change of pace. Nice to get out and clear my mind.
Tomorrow Coach Jen has me back to running, then rest on Saturday, and a 50 minute run Sunday.
I also got my blood work back from my doctor for my month after follow up…My cholesterol is 188, down from bacon cheeseburger…ok, from 243. But the first reading was not a fasting test. My HA1C is steady at 6.2…as my doctor says, “a well managed diabetic” or prediabetic, depending on who you talk to.
So improvement…slow and steady.
More soon!
K seems to be well on the mend. Her fever is down to 99.8 this morning. PG though, decided she was going to get sick…her temp this morning was 102.4. Pam took her to the pediatrician. I am going to my doc here shortly. I’m achy/ tired…no fever, or any other symptoms really.
I’m worried. I think now that PG potentially has it…becuase she’s the baby, I’m worried. Not if I get it. But both girls being sick sucks.
On to the weigh-in…down another 3.2 lbs for a total of 23 lbs lost since 10/14/09! Honestly, I wanted a bigger number. I wanted to break through 300lbs this week…wanted to smash through. I haven’t been this light in a while. I haven’t been under 300lbs since I met my wife.
This morning’s work out wasn’t bad…5 min warm up, 30 minute run, 5 min cool down. Did ok. Just sore and achy now.
More later…
Dave Wallach @ Pace of Chicago
